The morning of

Ok, so I'm a wreck. I hardly slept at all, but I expected that. I'm exhausted and I WANT COFFEE!!! But I can't have any. My stomach is in knots anyway, and I've got a very nervous stomach, so it's probably best that I don't have any. I leave for the hospital in about an hour, and my house is a mess. I guess that's to be expected, as yesterday I was kind of in a slump. I was feeling kind of depressed and very anxious and I just didn't get anything done. Well, I did get some done, but not as much as I had hoped. I really didn't feel like I had any energy yesterday, which I suppose is from not sleeping much the previous nights. I have my bag all packed and ready to go, and I kissed my kids up last night and gave them great big hugs before bed, and they still don't quite understand that mommy's not going to be home for a few days, and don't even bother trying to explain surgery to a 4 year old. LOL. She just couldn't fathom something like that. Mark tried really hard to stay up with me last night because I just couldn't fall asleep. Finally at around 10:30 I told him to just go to sleep, he was so tired from working and I didn't want him to be exhausted the next day. Poor guy. He works so hard. Anyway, I thank everyone for their prayers and support, without all of you, I'm sure I'd be an even bigger wreck than I am already, and I especially thank everyone who is bringing a meal to my family. It really means a lot to me to have all of you. I'll try to post on here or send a message to the group when I'm out of recovery and into a room. Providing I'm awake.