Thursday, January 22, 2009

Yikes

I thought that when you were healing things were supposed to FEEL better. Not today! Not only do I have the internal pain and bruised feeling that already hurt, but apparently my skin has decided that it is going to get some of it's feeling back and IT BURNS! Now if I move one way, my insides hurt, and if I move a different way, my skin feels like it's being ripped apart. Either way, I am hurting A LOT today. I was really looking forward to feeling better, but today I feel almost like a step back. Ugh. What a nerve wracking thing this is. I'm getting little bit of energy back but I'm still taking pain medication so that zaps my energy almost as quickly as I've regained it. Mark has to go back to work tomorrow and the lady from our bowling league, Ronda, has volunteered to come and be with me tomorrow. That was such a nice thing for her to do, I don't know her that well, but for her to offer and even take a day off work to be with me so I'm not alone, what a blessing! It still feels weird for me to have other people doing so much for me. I am having a hard time just letting my husband clean and not wanting to jump in and take over. Fortunately my pain reminds me that I cannot, so I'm not over doing it.

Mark took Cheyanne to her bus stop yesterday, which is at the entrance to our park, and they rode his motorcycle. She is quite the little adventure seeker, and while they were parked at the bus stop, she was standing on the seat holding the handle bars doing a "look ma, no feet" thing. I wish Mark had taken a camera because it just sounds too funny. I love her adventurous side, she gets that from her dad. Sadie, is my little bleeding heart. She's the sweetest little caring individual. She wants so badly to make me feel better, that she's forever offering to do something for me. It's really sweet. Her grandma, my inlaw, went home on Tuesday after being with the kids all weekend, and she cried and cried. My kids call Mark's parents "lela" and "pepa". Anyhow Sadie just cried that she missed her Lela already and wanted her to come back. It's funny, because she's really close to Mark's mom, and Mark's mom is also a very sensitive person and often cries when she leaves the grandkids. You know, I've got the greatest inlaws. I couldn't have asked for better. It still amazes me that God blessed me with such wonderful family. My own personal family leaves much to be desired, so his family is always a breath of fresh air. I'm glad that we have such a good relationship with Mark's family, it makes up for what I lacked with my own when I was young.