Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Interesting mix of feelings

Tonight my mother came over and insulted my husband and called him "ruthless", then she insulted my mother in law calling her "inept" and I told her I did not want to have this conversation with her and she should leave. As she was leaving she told me I was "in denial". It was just weird to begin with, but then about 15 minutes later she sends me a text message on my cell phone that said "Judas kissed Jesus". So now I'm a traitor too? I'm angry about what she has said about myself and my family, but I'm also amused that she is being so childish. I am also a little hurt that my own mother, who is supposed to love me can be so awful to me. She doesn't show me love. She shows contempt for me and for my family. I understand that she does not like my mother in law, and honestly, my mother inlaw does not like her either, but I did NOTHING to instigate a fight with her. And how dare she just walk into my house without knocking and insult my husband! I was standing in the kitchen doing dishes! That's it, nothing more. My mind just cannot wrap around this tonight, and I feel the need to vent, but I don't even know where to go from here. Mark says she's jealous that I am fulfilled in my life. I've got a wonderful husband who loves me dearly, and my children are absolutely wonderful blessings, and I love them and they love me. That's more than she's got. Her kids don't even live with her. They lived with US for the last 2 years before moving in with my husband's employer. Ugh, a whole other nightmare story. Not to mention that she did all of her insulting tonight IN FRONT OF MY CHILDREN!!! I have now instructed my children that when they come home from school, they are NOT to stop by her house, but to come directly home, and we are to keep the doors locked at all times and NOT answer the door to her. In the meantime, I've got a lot of thinking to do, but at this point I need to no longer have a relationship with her. I cannot continue this rollercoaster ride that is my mother.

Monday, February 2, 2009

25 Random facts about me

25 Random facts about me, stolen from Shanna's blog LOL.

1. I have a genetic disorder called Nail-Patella Syndrome. If your curious about it, google it! :)

2. 3 of my 4 children also have the genetic disorder, our youngest, Ana, does NOT have it.

3. When we were in high school, my now husband, tried to get me to date him. I kept telling him no, as I was not allowed to have a boyfriend. One day he cornered me in the hallway by the lockers and told me that one day I was going to marry him. He went into the service, and I went into foster care and didn't see eachother for about 5 years. When we saw eachother again, it was instant chemistry, and we were married about a year later.

4. After the birth of my son, I wanted to have all boys. I have 3 girls now and my son LOL.

5. My grandma is my next best friend besides my husband.

6. I cannot function in the morning until I have at least 3 cups of coffee. I use lots of 1/2 & 1/2 in my coffee.

7. I lose stamina on projects quickly, and leave them unfinished for long periods of time.

8. I want to be organized, but I'm a terrible organizer.

9. I love to cook, however, I hate cleaning up my own mess after I cook.

10. I refuse to let my husband do laundry. I'm extremely picky about it, and I am sure he won't do it right. Right = my way, so his way = wrong. Right?

11. I have amazing inlaws. I couldn't have asked for any better. I'm so blessed.

12. I'm addicted to Bath & Body Works scents. I've got 4 different smells that I rotate. Warm Vanilla Sugar, Country Apple, Cherry blossom, and Sweet Pea. Sweet Pea and Warm Vanilla Sugar are my two favorites that I use most frequently.

13. I'm on a bowling league Sunday nights. I haven't bowled in 3 weeks since my surgery and I'm DYING to go throw a ball down the lanes. Have to wait a couple more weeks though.

14. I have a woodstove in my house, and I'm cold blooded. It's not unusual for me to keep the house at a balmy 80 degrees in the winter time. My kids have to run around in shorts and tanks, poor kids.

15. I've gained 5 pounds in the 2 weeks following my hysterectomy.

16. I'm a penny pinching miser, that refuses to spend money on anything that is not neccessary. My printer has been out of ink AND paper for almost 3 months, but I can't see any reason to buy any, so I haven't.

17. I never buy clothes for myself. My husband picks out, buys and brings home clothes for me, when he thinks I need some. I'm cool with what I have, but he thinks I need more LOL.

18. I rarely eat breakfast. I'm not a morning person, and I'm not hungry usually until about lunchtime.

19. I love to fish, hunt and grow vegetables. I wish that things in the world were more "old fashioned" and I had someone to can and butcher with.

20. I have absolutely NO artistic ability. I cannot paint, draw, scrapbook, craft, knit, crochet, or any other sort of crafty sort of thing. I can however decorate a cake. Doesn't make any sense I know.

21. When I was a little girl, I wanted to be an Archaeologist, and still to this day I am fascinated with History, and Archaeology. I'm addicted to the History Channel and National Geographic Channel.

22. I love romance novels, especially by Jude Deveraux, and left to myself I can read 2 novels in a day if I am not constantly interrupted, or if I have nothing else to do. (like when I was in the hospital)

23. I love a good football game on a Sunday afternoon. Falling asleep on the couch while relaxing with a belly full of football snacks is right up my alley.

24. I don't make friends easily or quickly. I am too quiet and I'm always leery about what people "really think" about me.

25. I love being a wife and mommy and I wouldn't trade what I do for any amount of money or any other career in the world.