Geez. I don't know what my problem is, well, yeah I do, but anyways I didn't get hardly any sleep last night. I literally ( no exaggeration at all), woke up every 2 hrs all night. I mean EVERY 2 hrs all night long. Thankfully I didn't stay up long, but I really feel unrested, and very sore. I've got a lot of tension in my neck and shoulders and upper back. I really hate days like this. They call it a "flare up", and it really stinks. I don't mean to complain, but I'm trying to document my journey through this disorder called "fibromyalgia".
It was really strange that I would wake up exactly on the hour every 2 hrs last night. I've had it happen every 4 hrs, but never 2 hrs. I wonder what that means. If it happens again, I'm definitely going to have to call the doctor and see what he says. It may be that the amitritptyline isn't working properly. I don't know.
On another note, today is my second smoke free day. It's not easy to quit smoking, but I know that I'm doing the right thing. Why did I continue smoking even though I didn't like it? Because I was addicted. Addiction is like having a little monster inside of you that needs it's fix. Everytime you give it it's fix it grows. I am no longer going to feed that monster, and I'm going to enjoy quitting because I'm not losing anything. I'm not suffering a loss by not smoking, I'm just not feeding that monster anymroe. I'm not losing anything by not smoking because there's nothing to lose, I don't enjoy it, it stinks, it tastes bad, it costs way too much money, and it steals my life. I'm losing nothing, I'm gaining my life......
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I haven't commented in a while, but am following your journey. Praying for you!
Love,
Rebeca
I'm the same, I still read every post WHEN I can too. Glad you getting that NASTY habit of smoking out of your life. Smoking has hurt you body, every time you put in your mouth. I will praise you for standing up.
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